The way my brain is wired is that I tend to not live in the moment. In fact, I tend to live in a moment yet to have happened. I live in the future, always leaning into what is about to happen and seldom reflecting (or at least to the degree that it might be healthy for me to) on the places I have traversed, the experiences I have made or, more importantly, made me. I especially don’t naturally take in the moment. It’s not that I don’t care. I care, deeply. I guess I’m just wired such that what I see vividly coming in the future is so vivid it steals my attention.
It’s not that I can’t reflect, or appreciate the moment; it just takes a little more discipline. It doesn’t come naturally to me; I have to be intentional about it. This past week, I seized a moment to live in the moment. The moment kind of forced me to because it was a celebration of what has happened, not casting what can or will happen. I had the privilege of returning back to an organization I worked at 15 years ago. Many old friends, many people that shaped me as the leader I am today.
When I first arrived at the organization I was young, more foolish than I’d like to admit, thought I knew more than I did, but excited for possibilities and potential. I was brought in to initiate new programs and initiatives that would add to the growing base of the organization. Here’s the fun part. What I was privileged to help initiate, others grew and built upon. I love that. I have a lot of ideas, a lot of thoughts, dreams and what ifs. I’m really good at having the vision and beginning the implementation of it. I’m not really that good at the maintenance piece, nor am I all that interested in it either. I love visioning, beginning, casting, launching, transitioning and creating. It fuels me! But, keeping that going once we arrive or achieve early successes at arriving at the desired outcome isn’t something that fuels me. Oh, I can do it, and have done it, but it’s just not in my 5 percent. [Read more…]